When your gut tells you something isn't right.....go with it. Mine was screaming at me telling me that things were all wrong. I wish I was strong enough at that point just to move on, but I wasn't I was pregnant and terrified. I was convinced I would never be able to do it on my own. I guess at that point it didn't click with me that I had been doing it all alone for the past 4 years I just couldn't see it. I did everything I could to be a better wife but nothing was ever good enough. I spent many nights crying and many days trying. I put up with way more than most would. I loved him, but I should have known that you can't fix someone who doesn't want to be fixed. When I realized that I started to become stronger. With each new blow I got stronger and stronger. Until finally I said enough.
Calling it quits was a hard decision for me. I never wanted to get married, have kids, then get divorced. I don't think anyone does but unfortunately it happens way to often these days. It took me another few months to truly know that I was making the right decision. I went through the motions of being a good wife while I made a plan. I started living again. I realized that over the last 6 years I gave up so much. I gave up friends and being a normal person. I lived to stay home and make my husband happy and in return I wasn't happy.
When you come to the realization that you just aren't happy its like hitting a brick wall. There was no going back. Thankfully I have an amazing support system, they helped me through so much. I have the most amazing family and friends anyone could ever ask for! If it weren't for them and their help, kind words, and encouragement I don't know if I could have done it!
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